Sorry for the infrequent updates recently. I just thought I'd let you all know:
My life is an absolute mess at the minute.
I feel like I've been living a lie for the past decade, I haven't been getting enough sleep and when I do, I have these rather bizarre and oftentimes frightening dreams that end with me waking up screaming, I've been involuntarily starving and dehydrating myself because my head is so jumbled up that I literally forget to eat or drink anything and I live in constant fear of the outside because of how many crimes occur on a weekly basis in my neighboorhood.
In the past couple weeks, I've written and re-written my suicide note over eight times. The nihilistic side of my brain is getting the better of me. It never used to be like this. And I have no one that I feel like I can talk to.
So I'm sorry I haven't been around to inform you all sooner, but I just don't feel like I can go on much longer. I may be taking a break soon to recollect myself.